Thursday, April 28, 2016

First Birthright Meeting

Monday, April 26th I finally got to meet my fellow adventure-mates who I will be traveling with halfway across the world to Israel in ONE MONTH AND A HALF. Before I went to this meeting, I had a feeling it would make me even more antsy to just go already!!! Let's just leave now. Midterms? Finals? NAAHHHHH.

We played games to get to know each other. I was nervous about whether I'd like the people that I'd be trusting as my first time traveling buddies. I'm not so nervous anymore, more like excited, pumped, and extremely optimistic. After the silly games, we watched a video and went over the orientation guide. The guide literally lists everything that you need to pack, prepare for, and know about the trip. Rafi, one of the leaders of my trip, mentioned how close we would all become and that they even set up reunions afterwards. To be honest, I don't think I will be going to my high school reunion. I've been to three different high schools and obviously high school was complete chaos for me, so I didn't really get the chance to form friendships that were close enough to last. After going to this meeting, I cannot tell you the names of everyone I met. However, I am positive that some of those people will become my close friends.

PS: I cannot wait for the day we ride camels and the night we lay out under the stars.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

The World is Tough But So Are You

Yay!! I was going to sign up for the Channels Newspaper anyway to complete my Associates Degree in Journalism, but the fact that I got recruited makes it a whole lot better! My Journalism teacher, Professor Molina, had told my class he would directly speak with The Channels teacher, Professor Stark, about who he thought would do well moving up to SBCC's newspaper class. You're looking at her blog right here ;)

Yesterday I had gone in to speak with an academic counselor about making sure I wanted to major in Journalism and not major in Communications (which is very similar). Well guess what? Journalism wins again! Ding Ding Ding! What I like about communications is that it really makes you do deep thinking, sort of like psychology but less scientific. So recently after that annual conference I went to and loving my Argumentation and Debate communications class, I started to question....Do I want to major in Communications and minor in Journalism? However, I spoke with the counselor and communications is a more business-like route whereas journalism really pertains to the type of job I want to do.

We went over schools that I could transfer too after next year and she kept mentioning the competition is high for the colleges that I'm looking into. However, I know I have to go to them because I want to stay in SoCal and I'm limited on the colleges that provide Journalism as a major. The good news is, that there a couple more schools besides San Diego State and CSU Long Beach that have it, Fullerton and Pomona. I was told, "San Diego is nearly impossibly to get into."  Look, I am tougher than anything that get's thrown at me, but that doesn't stop me from looking at the world as "tough" or the world proceeding to be that way. I know I need to stay in SoCal because I have worked so hard to get here. For a whole decade I dreamed of being back. Leaving would be like leaving a piece of me I have been yearning for for so long. I have been so extremely focused on school recently because I know what I have to do to please these schools to get accepted. Unfortunately, CSU schools do not have to look at your personal background and skills unlike UC schools where you submit an essay. I know that would help me so much because of how much I have overcome and what I am doing now, blogging for almost 2 years! In the end, when I search for a career, it's the writing that counts. However, right now it's about the GPA. That's the tough thing. I should've taken some of my general ed classes pass/no pass, but I can't turn back now, nor should I.

Just remember when things get tough, that you are tougher. That is the attitude that will get you through anything you are succumbing. Good luck these last few weeks in school! Focus on the prize!!! (Your degree and summer)

Friday, April 22, 2016

13th Annual SBCC Student Conference

Poster about the event
Today I attended the 13th Annual SBCC Student Conference. It was one of the mandatory events I had to choose from to attend for my Journalism class. I'm glad I went. I was actually going to cover the baseball game tomorrow, but it conflicted with my work schedule and I didn't know if I'd be able to be there for the full game. Our assignment is to cover a "breaking news" story and write an article about it by 11:59pm the next day. Well.... I'm going to blog about it first because blogging is more fun!

They first had an arrangement of sandwiches and fruit for everybody attending outside the IDC building. FREE LUNCH!!! Later they had cookies and coffee during a break session. I'm not going to go into full detail about the event because that's what I'll have to do for my article. However, I will tell you about my "journalist" experience.

After I got back from the gym this morning I took a quick shower, put on a pretty skirt, painted my lips red, and put my glasses on to head out the door to the conference. I felt pretty snazzy, not gonna lie. I arrived at SBCC to my first big event I have been asked to cover. Even though this was for a class, I felt like I had a purpose. As a journalist, the main job you are doing is spreading awareness to people about what is going on in the world. To me, spreading awareness about stuff that I care about is what I want to do most. Spreading awareness is what keeps the world spinning and changing. I want to help the world and writing is my way of doing it.


I witnessed students speak who I never would've known about before. Some spoke about their lives and some spoke about worldly problems. They were all interesting to hear. One guy presented an iMovie about bringing a homeless mansurfing with him and his friend. Although he and I wouldn't recommend going out and doing that, it touched my heart to hear all these college students speaking about something they care about. Knowing other college students feel the same way I do towards wanting to change the world and be the best you you can be and not just party, makes me feel like I am not alone.

I will leave off with a quote from one of the student conference leaders, Dr. Eckford-Prossor. "It doesn't make a difference if you're at a community college. You can have a fabulous, decent life by being here." Today was one of those days that made me proud to be a SBCC student. Our school is so diverse and helpful. If I were asked if I wanted to change anything about our campus, I couldn't tell you what I'd want to change. I mean....maybe putting water in our symbolic "water" fountain buuuuuuttttt #droughtprobz . And maybe solving the parking issue....but everyone wants to come to this school because it's so great. Can't have it all!!!  Or can you? I'll try and figure it out, maybe one day.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Summer is the Finish Line

Tbh this coffee distracted me instead of helping me focus
It's getting real guys. The workload is sufficiently increasing. It's like the end of running in a race, you gotta pick up the speed and put in extra work. We are almost at the finish line!!!


Lately I've been dealing with the sniffles, the achoos, the cough coughs, and a sore throat. I went to the nurse and they believe it is just allergies. When I first had the sore throat I was like uh....wait.... didn't I just have a tonsillectomy a year ago? I think the sore throat is just coming the drainage....yum.


I've got a paper due every week in Argumentation & Debate including our final paper which will be 15 pages. Our "final" for that class will be debating in front of the entire class. Journalism is requiring me to go to an event to cover a breaking news story that I need to write by 11:59pm the next day. I have to go to at least two more concerts for Music Appreciation. If I go to an extra one it can raise my grade by three percent.I also have to clock in at the library and watch two hour long videos. In Graphic Design I have to put together a 12 page booklet about Guinni in InDesign by the end of the semester. I'll admit, it's overwhelming. All I can do is do one thing at a time and move along to the next project. That's all you can do too! There's no way around it, you just gotta do it.

Picture summer at the end of your finish line and run like you are being chased! You can do this, I believe in all of you!

Monday, April 18, 2016

Dodgers vs Giants

I gathered with Santa Barbara students and volunteers this past Saturday at Hillel to go to one of my favorite places in LA, the Dodger's Stadium. Boy, I had not been here in a decade and it felt thrilling to get to go there with a big group of people!

 I'm originally from Southern California and my dad is obsessed with baseball, especially the Dodgers. So I grew up going to Dodgers games and I enjoy them even more now than I did as a kid because I appreciate the game. I grew up playing all sorts of sports, one of them was softball. Second base was my favorite position. I was training to pitch and I was getting really good at it. My small town in LeClaire, Iowa couldn't seem to get enough girls for the next season. We already had to play older girls and at this age we weren't even informed about stealing bases! Moral of the story is...I stopped playing because my town was too small and I got caught up in other things moving around all the time. That did not take my love away for the game!


It's not about what team is better, it's about supporting your team through thick and thin. I love where I am from and I will support the teams where I am from, no matter if they are winning championships or not even making it to the play-offs. Most of my memories consist of the Dodgers losing at almost every game I went to including this one (Giants 4 Dodgers 3). HOWEVER!!!! The Dodgers won overall against them 3 to 1. Of course I was at the game they lost, but oh well. Sorry I'm such bad luck, I just can't help myself from coming to a game or two! I hope to go this summer when my dad is in town, he hasn't been to a Dodgers game in an even longer time than I have. We have seen them at other stadiums though across the U.S.. I Facetimed my dad for a few minutes during the game like the goof I am, I just had to! And I am glad I did. His face lit up like I remember it yeaaaaarrrrsss ago. It was one of those moments you know you did something to make your parents happy. 

Two pretty scary things happened after the game. A fight broke out in the parking lot between two women. One of them was holding a child and had to hand him over, it was a pretty sickening sight. Next, after we had left, there was a huge fatal collision right behind us on the freeway. Everyone, including myself made it passed it on the 101 before it had happened except for one of the group of cars from SB Hillel. They got stuck in major traffic. 

The guy next to me in the picture above is going on my same Birthright trip! It was nice to meet someone who I will be sharing such a huge experience with and I can't wait to meet the rest coming up here pretty soon :) 

Friday, April 15, 2016

5 Years Later

4/15/2011
Five years ago today I started my chemotherapy treatment for Hodgkin's Lymphoma. It's one of those things that
you look back on and say, "That feels like forever ago." But then when you really think about it and you see the old pictures you say, "That feels like it was yesterday, I cannot believe this much time has passed by." 

Usually I think about these types of things a lot, but today I totally forgot until now. I just got back from the gym and it's crazy to think that five years ago from today that wouldn't have been possible. 

When I started chemotherapy treatment I was 138lbs. That is the most I've ever weighed. By the end of it, I dropped down to about 100lbs. In one of those nights....I lost 8 pounds. Yeah! Woo! Not fun! I weighed myself today after going to the gym for about 4 months now and eating decently healthy on the weekdays. It took me 4 months to lose 10 pounds, whereas 5 years ago, the awful treatment made me lose almost 40 pounds in that same timespan. 
4/15/2011

I cannot tell you how hard it is to wrap my head around how far I've come. Just because someone, anyone, who has had to go through cancer treatment seems like they are done battling it, they aren't. I'm not going to lie, I've had my struggles psychologically and physically from cancer and you all have been with me through my blogs to see that these past almost 2 years. It doesn't go away, it was a traumatic experience. I'll also admit, I feel like a part of me is missing not engaging in a cancer organization like I used to. This will change once school ends, I am looking into the Teddy Bear Cancer Organization. That was one of the biggest reasons besides Israel that I decided not to do summer school. I can feel that I need to get back in touch with the kind of strength having cancer gave me. The people in these types of organizations are simply phenomenal as well! Hopefully that will inspire me to get back into my autobiography and finish that thing! I know it will. No excuses...but last week within two days I spent a grand total of 14-16 hours working on an essay. The reason I can't tell you how many hours exactly is because 1) I was completely brain fried and 2) There was a little bit of procrastination. But hey, 14-16 hours working on the same thing deserves a little bit of that! 



Today April 15, 2016 I am cancer free and chemotherapy can kiss my booty! I live, pray, and hope for the best of what is and what will become of my life after cancer. This is a day that I don't necessarily celebrate like I would my remission day...My remission anniversaries remind me of the day I felt like I was born again, it's honestly like a second birthday to me. This anniversary however, reminds me of the treatment that changed my life forever. I had no choice but to be strong starting today five years ago. Do me a favor, give somebody a hug today! Everyone is battling something because everyone was a survivor of yesterday and today. Wish I could hug you all through my blog, but ya know....that type of thing hasn't been invented yet! So here <3 

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Saved Myself from Summer School

I am my own superhero.

As you all should be informed, it is time to sign up for summer classes. Last year I took English 110 during Summer Session II. I did pretty well with a B+, however it did suck going to class MTWR for four hours straight during the "time off".

I obviously can't take a Summer Session I class because I will be in Israel for two of those weeks. Summer Session II will start the day after I get back, which is when my dad will be here. I was considering taking a class just incase I needed a little wiggle room for something going wrong. It's not that I was having a negative outlook, I was simply being prepared for the fact that life and mistakes happen. The counselor at school had told me there were technically only 5 classes I had left to take to transfer to a CSU with an Associate Degree in Journalism. After meeting with her at 1:30 pm the day before sign ups (April 11th), I spent six hours trying to figure out my best solution path for the last of my SBCC classes. While doing so, in my last hour I saw that the COMM 171 (Mass Media and Society) that I need to take is not only required for a Journalism transfer, it is smack dab right on the IGETC (list of required general ed classes to chose from at SBCC) sheet under Social and Behavioral Sciences. It was one of those hallelujah moments let me tell you! All night I couldn't help but hope that when I was going to go into the counselor's office the next morning, April 12th, that they would tell me that it counts for both sections. Therefore, I will only have to take 4 classes.

So I guess me trying to figure it out for 6 hours was better than spending 45 plus hours in an extra class I didn't want to take. However, I wasn't done. Nope, I was considering emailing an online Summer Session I professor to find out if I could finish the class early before my trip to Israel. You see, if I took a Summer I and Summer II class I could be eligible to apply to transfer to a CSU in the Spring. If you have 60 credits or more by the end of the Summer session at one college before transferring to a CSU in the Spring, you are eligible to apply. After Spring 2016 I will have 54.....that means I would need to take 2 classes (6 unites) in the summer.

If there is one thing I have learned from the trial of going off to college and the oh so loved process of "adulting", it is sometimes you need to live your life to the fullest and let go of the stress because being happy conquers all fear. I am going to enjoy my summer in Israel, my dad's visit, and whatever the rest of the summer has in store for me. I am going to take extra PE classes at SBCC (like I did with Ocean Swimming) because only here can you take a Kayaking or Beach Volleyball class right on or next to the ocean. They are only a credit or a credit and a half, but that's not the point. It will help raise my grade while having a little fun. And that's kind of what college is about. We as college students have the rest of our life to not be in school after we graduate, so we might as well make the most of it! I am also advised to take a Photography class before I take a required Photojournalism class. I tried to learn how to use one of those nicer cameras when I took Photojournalism in high school, which taught me that I need to learn how to use a complicated camera before I take Photojournalism again. Anyways...I need to write an essay on incarcerated and ex-felons and I was procrastinating by blogging because this seemed a little more fun. Have I told you I can't wait till Summer?

Sunday, April 10, 2016

First Interview Story

My Writing and Reporting teacher instructed my classmates and I to interview someone at the school. Whether it was a student or an employee, we needed to find an interesting story and write it as if it was in an article. 

T'was the Friday morning before Spring Break... I have no classes on Fridays, but you gotta do what you gotta do to get a great story. It was test day for the Emotional Mindfulness class. You'd think it be a boring, stressed out day in class but it was completely the opposite! Down below is my article I wrote for my class if you'd like to take a look. It was my first "Interview Story" I ever wrote so easy on the critiques ;)

A petite woman walks her bike into the classroom with her helmet still buckled on her chin. She is carrying an oversized backpack that doesn’t seem to weigh her down. 
She parks her bike in the back of the room, bringing a sense of ease to the students with piles of books on their desks’. 
As if she awakened the classroom, the students start to giggle and they welcome their teacher as she walks up the aisle to her desk. 
Betsy Phillips drops her backpack on the desk taking out a plastic bag full of orange tangerines.
“Let’s do this,” says Mrs. Phillips. 
She passes out the tangerines one by one greeting each student to her Friday morning Emotional Mindfulness teaching. 
All of the students took one and set it down in front of them like they were preparing for something else to happen.
“Get comfortable and happy” says Mrs. Phillips. 
This was the start of their meditation practice they always begin class with, even on test days. 
Mrs. Phillips scoots her swivel chair to the  front and center of the classroom and sits on it criss-cross-applesauce. 
The class wiggles around, finding the perfect spots in their seats. They quiet down enough to hear the AC running and the birds chirping outside. 
For a first year Santa Barbara City College teacher, she really knows how to lead a class. Her experience as a mental health counselor for two decades is what makes this classroom so positive on a day like today.
Phillips is passionate about this topic. She started studying Tibetan Buddhism when she was 18, claiming it as a psychology and not a religion. 
Yoga and meditation helped her get through college. She says the practice is “fundamental” to her sense of well-being.
Her major was in American Studies, but traveling and volunteering was what she learned the most from. 
On a train she traveled through the open landscapes of Ecuador. Even if the train ride was hours long, she could stay entertained by the view because the outdoors is what inspires her most. 
She continued taking in the view writing it all down in her notebook. It was filled with words that spoke of appreciating the simplicity and scenery of the life surrounding her. Not only would she take these types of feelings in today, but every day for the rest of her life. 
“I am extremely lucky and blessed,” says Phillips. She digs deep into her thoughts searching for a reason why only to say, “I could never claim one experience or even a set of them for being responsible.”
Mindfulness can be practiced in all activities. That’s how Phillips is able to live her life in the present every moment of the day. Not only does she teach it to her students, she makes sure they achieve the full experience of it.
Back in room CC126 on West Campus, Mrs. Phillips ends the meditation with a recording of nuns and monks. 
Before some of the students get the chance to open their eyes Mrs. Phillips shouts, “You know what, let’s go outside!”
She takes off her shoes revealing her striped socks, inviting the students to let their feet be free as well. Skipping out the door, she leads the way out into a large area of grass right outside the classroom.
Jumping around full of energy, she encourages the students to let loose. To break the ice and erase everyone’s fears, she tells the students to say whatever it is they want to the test. 
Mrs. Phillips throws her arms up in a dramatic way, shaking out any stress screaming, “AAHH!”
Everyone’s face brightens, surprised that a teacher could understand exactly how they were feeling. All of a sudden the class got in giggling mode and started letting go of anything holding them back. 
People were passing by, but the class was in a zone that didn’t let anything outside themselves affect them. Mrs. Phillips has done her job and the class is now prepared for their test.
All the students head back inside, except for one in particular that stays back with the teacher. 
“I’m a little exhausted” says Chante Stallworth. 
Mrs. Phillips assures her she will do well and they enter back into the classroom together. 
The instructions for the test were as follows: breathe, drink tea, take breaks, go outside. Mrs. Phillips apologized for not being able to bring tea, but assures the class that everything else in the instructions are “necessary”.
“That is the style of learning we are in and my thank you for coming to class on Fridays” says Mrs. Phillips. 
She begins clapping for her students, cheering them on during their test. Everyone drops their pencils and joins in on the motivational clap. The class is in this together.

Wholeheartedly Mrs. Phillips shouts, “Go team!” 

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Shopping at School

Who thought setting up shopping tents on a college campus is a good idea?

When sunglasses make
you feel glamorous
Not only today, but there have been many times where people from LA have driven up to SBCC just to sell their merchandise. The stuff that they sell include: art, jewelry, bags, clothes, sunglasses, etc.. Not gonna lie, their stuff is quite trendy in terms of Santa Barbara's style.

If I can remember correctly, they visit on Tuesdays and Thursdays. At least this week they are doing so. They aren't here every week. Today was the second time I bought something. I thought I'd share what I got and the experiences I've had!

Experience 1
A month or two ago I was browsing around and I got the tank top above. I knew it would fit so I didn't bother trying it on. There was a girl next to me who was trying on something and she asked me for advice. Wait what? Strangers talk to each other in public in today's world? Just kidding. I love when people actually talk to you, it's uplifting. Especially if a stranger asks for your opinion. Some random guy told me I was beautiful at Costco the other day. I wasn't really interested, but I stayed friendly of course. I've become extremely picky in terms of who I like in a dating sense. Although, you can never go wrong with a compliment!

Experience 2


This happened today. I got the dress to the left and needed to make sure it fit in all the right places. I LOVE wearing dresses. They are easy to throw on and can be comfortable. However, they are a pain in the you know what for people like me who are A short and B disproportionate. Keep in mind, these shops are outside. In order to change, they have these mini tent stands nearly the height of myself 5'2". There was barely any space in there and all I could keep thinking was whatifthetentfallswhatifthetentfalls. I got over it, I was inspired by a painting of Marilyn Monroe (which I was tempted to get). If the tent would've fallen on her, she would've came up with something classy/confident to cover the embarrassment up. However, that didn't hide my awkward feelings of being in my undies in the middle of West Campus.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Letting Go

View from my bedroom. California is the opposite of
everywhere else I've lived. Green in the winter,
dry in the summer.
Looks like winter came a little late this year. Too bad it wasn't warm enough to lay out at the beach everyday like I hoped, but I did get some time to relax which was the main idea! In fact maybe too much time...I did nothing over spring break.  But hey, summer is in 6 weeks (scary). I can't help but think of all the schoolwork that is going to be crammed in for the next month and a half knowing our day back is already tomorrow. That didn't seem to stop me from being lazy during the time off!

I apologize for not being able to blog the last week of school before break. My pug had to be put down after I basically spent my entire life with him. I have never had so many memories with a loved one and had to accept that I wouldn't have any more. A blog with an iMovie video will be posted as soon as I can get myself to make it. Overall, I feel I am reacting to the whole situation a lot better than I thought I would be. The week before break was tough because I felt like it was just a countdown of the number of days my Guinni had left of pain. Knowing he is in peace now makes me sooo content even though I couldn't imagine my life without him before.

On a more uplifting note, I officially have my place ready for this summer starting in July through my third and final year at SBCC! Where has the time gone? It's funny how we as humans tend to look forward to things in the future, rather than in the present. For instance, anytime I think about summer I just want it here already! With Israel and my dad coming to visit California in the summer (for the first time in a decade) I can't help it. I wish I could get myself to live more fully in the present day. I know I will learn how to over time. I am 20 years old. In a way, my life just began less than 2 years ago. As we grow up, we don't have much control over our lives and what we can do with it because we are too young to know how. However your parents decided to do things or wherever they moved to, that was what you did too. Hopefully that perspective takes some weight off your shoulders. Lately I've been thinking about things that way and I can say that I worry a lot less and feel relaxed a lot more. Whatever happens will happen as long as you take action. So there is no point in letting the fear control you so much. Hence why I was extremely lazy over break. All the essays, homework, projects, and studying I knew I would have this upcoming week didn't matter because they aren't meant to over break. I turned in that article for Journalism Easter night, dropped my Macbook laptop (not literally), and said NO MORE!! Sometimes taking control of your life means letting go. Not tomorrow though, we all better hold on and hold on tight because the teachers are all ready to start throwing assignments our way! Oh well, it was nice while it lasted. Hope you all had a fun (or a relaxing) spring break.